oh geeze..

im not gunna lie..im getting bored with xanga...facebook is better! but anyways..this weekend was nuts! pretty much hung out with whitney and brittany allll weekend! probably the most fun ive had in a while..not too sure how a few situations are gunna turn out..but who knows...everything seems to be looking up..except school..school will always suck! me and whit are going to the state fair next weekend! abd we have the concert to go to on saturday night! pretty pumped about that! hmmm i dont know what else...but hopefully i will have some pics and quotes later when i have more time! kk lata

meg*

well....this weekend had its ups and downs..im pretty much stupid....i hurt him...and i knew what i was doing would make him mad..but it didnt even affect me...and now i dont know what im gunna do about it...i dont know what there IS to do about it...

...theres nothing else to say..so heres some quotes!

and all the feelings that i thought were gone
came rushing back to me all at once.
i tried to smile && hide how i felt but then
i realized.. i'm not gonna get over this one

he's so confusing, some of the things he says to me makes me believe that he really does still like me, and then some other things he says makes me believe that im just a girl that never crosses his mind.

Its really hard,
to fight for what you want ..
when you dont even know
what you want in the first place.

G00D FRiENDS will be there to take ur drink away
from u when they think u've had enough - but
ur [BEST FRiENDS] will look at u trippin over ur
own two feet & say "bitch, drink the rest of that. u
know we don't waste that kinda shit"

after awhile you learn the difference between holding a hand
& falling in love, you begin to learn that kisses don't always mean something, promises can be broken as quickly as they were made,& sometimes goodbyes really are forever </3

sometimes you have to realize that you
cant have it all . you cant fix what youve
done - you need to move on & try to be
happy . even if its the hardest thing you
will ever have to do <3

well its been a while...uhh lets see...i practically live at work! grr...but i guess its money....?hmmm umm me and whit have been hangin out with tony a ton lately...love him. yeah we are going shopping on sunday for school clothes and all that fun stuff.. school starts in 1 week!! uuuuggggghhhh....so anyways, hung out with an old friend the other day....it was very fun..it felt so good to be with her again and talk just like we used to..i missed her... me and whit got our tickets to see carrie underwood at the state fair!! i am so excited! well, heres some quotes!

Fate decides who walks into your life
You decide Who stays.Who you allow
to walk away, aNd who you refuse to
L e t L e a v e Y o u <3

She's so sick of never being beautiful enough, never being stronger, or better. She's sick of going home everyday, & wishing she was someone else. For once she wants to look in the mirror & be happy for what she sees back. She's so sick of everyone telling her "you can do so much better then that". Maybe she can't? She's sick of people bringing her down & telling her that she isn't good enough. But i guess all she really wants, is to be more then 2nd best.

Sometimes you need to put the past behind.
Your feelings. Your thoughts.
Everything that was ever there.
Because you can't get hurt if you don't care.

we kinda have this friendship where
i can call her a bitch and she can call
me a slut;; but we're still ---> [best friends]

you can try to hide your feelings
but they won't disappear
if they don't go away
there's a reason why they're there

*L.O.V.E.* --- no one else can hurt you more, but no one else can make you happier at the same time

The reason it's so confusing is because
it's love.. and if you didn't have any challenges,
what would be the point?

you need to live up life
& do crazy things
otherwise, its just a
bunch of thursdays
strung together

well thats all i got for now! update after this weekend!! lata

*mego <3

well my last post was kinda just my way of venting....but this post goes out to miss whitney marie!!

well whit, we have been through a ton of shit together...tons of good..and lots of bad..but we help eachother through what we both have to deal with and thats what makes you my best friend...i know that i can go to you for anything and everything... and i know you can do the same with me..we have tons of "you had to be there" memories already...and its only been the summer! i know that there will be TONS more to come! i freakin love you whit!

well heres some quotes! enjoy!

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so lifes pretty much been crappy as ever lately...it seems as far as relationships go....its pretty much pointless to even try..

i swear every time i think its worth a shot..it slaps me in the face..im always thinking.."this ones different" and it never is...i tried so hard to take it slow and not get attached this time...but i eventually let my gaurd down more and more...and right away i get everything shoved back in my face..it really sucks to get your hopes up about someone and then find out that everything he told you was a lie...and that he loves someone else..finding out you're not good enough for someone is probably the worst feeling in the world...i just dont see why guys would intentionally lie to someone about the way they feel about them, knowing its gunna hurt them alot when they find out the truth..if he knew this was the way it was going to turn out..he could have saved a lot of time effort by not even starting anything with anyone else in the first place..idk..maybe he just doesnt care..who knows...all i know is that im done for a while...its getting incredibly hard to trust anyone anymore...my gaurd is set soo high from now on...and i hate it..because i wasted so much time over people that dont matter..and its just gunna make it harder for the people who really do care to break down that wall

hmmm well thats like a frickin novel...but i needed to vent..but im done now..

*meg